Random Monday ramblings
Feb. 4th, 2013 04:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mickiI am trying to be good about not eating too many nuts, but good grief I am hungry today. You would think that with all the fibre in lentils a lentil salad would be more satisfying for longer, but not so much.
Meanwhile I am trying to decide whether or not to go to a work-based diabetes support group tomorrow. I generally hate these kinds of things, but it might be helpful (and of course I don't have to go back if I don't want to), but I realized that I have more shame about diabetes than about my other chronic health conditions. I may not want to tell everyone in the world that I have mixed connective tissue disease, or that my left eye is blind, or that I'm lactose intolerant, but none of those conditions makes me feel ashamed--mostly I just don't want to get into long conversations about them. Whereas I realize I feel some shame about the diabetes, because after all I'm the one who let myself get fat. Even though I'm not responsible for my family history or the PCOS that probably precipitated this. Yikes. Who knew how powerful those cultural messages were!
Meanwhile I am trying to decide whether or not to go to a work-based diabetes support group tomorrow. I generally hate these kinds of things, but it might be helpful (and of course I don't have to go back if I don't want to), but I realized that I have more shame about diabetes than about my other chronic health conditions. I may not want to tell everyone in the world that I have mixed connective tissue disease, or that my left eye is blind, or that I'm lactose intolerant, but none of those conditions makes me feel ashamed--mostly I just don't want to get into long conversations about them. Whereas I realize I feel some shame about the diabetes, because after all I'm the one who let myself get fat. Even though I'm not responsible for my family history or the PCOS that probably precipitated this. Yikes. Who knew how powerful those cultural messages were!
