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Still a weekend, so still reading Mary Oliver. I will probably return to Pema Chodron tomorrow.

This chapter of Winter Hours started out with Oliver talking about how she is mostly vegetarian, in part because the poet Shelley thought a vegetarian diet would render his intellect docile--though, she says, "I am devoted to Nature too, and to consider nature without this appetite--this other-creature consuming appetite--is to look with shut eyes upon the miraculous interchange that makes things work, that causes one thing to nurture another, that creates the future out of the past." I should have considered that a warning. I did not.

She then goes on to write poetically [of course] about turtles she sees on her daily walks with her dogs--about the dangers they face, their struggles to lay their eggs, the raccoons that follow and eat their eggs, and their general attempts to ward off predators. This all culminates in her account of witnessing a turtle dig a nest to lay its eggs, and Oliver returning to that nest the next day, digging up half the eggs and eating them! I have to say I was quite disillusioned.

Before she gets to that part of the story, she reflects a little more on animals eating each other: Speaking of a hawk she saw that had captured a pheasant, and her sudden desire for pheasant meat, she said: "I know that appetite is one of the gods, with a rough and savage face, but a god all the same. Teilhard de Chardin says somewhere that man's most agonizing spiritual dilemma is his necessity for food, with its unavoidable attachment to suffering. Who would disagree."

Part of me understands Oliver here. She doesn't draw a line between humans and other animals; both are holy and both have desires; both live by consuming others. Perhaps if she had started there (rather than starting with her semi-vegetarianism) I wouldn't have been shocked. Certainly I have read other semi-vegetarian observers of nature, like Gary Snyder, talking about how consuming meat in certain climates can be kinder to the ecosystem than eating plant foods that require lots of fossil fuels to ship, for example. And normally I do not count eggs as meat! Perhaps she just made me empathize with the turtle too much before talking about the eggs. There is a certain pragmatism of the small farmer, eating animals they have raised, that emotionally I find harder than factory farming. To eat something you have a relationship with seems (on an emotional level) worse than eating a strange animal, even if the relationship means the animal is treated more humanely. And not to have a relationship with animals you raise feels like a terrible sort of slavery.

Humans aren't obligate carnivores (barring certain health conditions), though I recognize in certain ways it is a privilege to choose not to consume meat. And plants have been shown to have certain sensations, even a certain kind of community life (like tree colonies communicating via fungus in their roots), so I suppose the bright light I draw between animals and plants isn't entirely clear. Still, I would like to reduce suffering, even if it is "unnatural."

It is a dilemma, though, because humans are part of nature, and Oliver is correct that part of the natural realm is different species devouring each other, which is kind of horrifying when contemplated in that light. One can make it pretty metaphorically with communion metaphors, but if Chardin (and Oliver) truly believe that to live others must die, it does give me a lot more sympathy for Jains who practice sallekhana (ritual suicide), even though a lot of the practices of Jains seem to extreme to me. I guess a modern analogue Jainism would be less concerned with wearing face cloths and carrying whisk brooms, and instead would be opposing all sorts of tech and human development that destroys the environment.

Is Oliver's egg-eating just embracing the destructiveness inherent in living and going for a lesser version of it?

I did start--and abandon for really tedious writing--a short volume on the natural theology of Oliver. Certainly those seeking theological lessons from the "Book of Nature" have to grapple with issues like why God did create a universe where life has to feed on other life. Sure, I suppose Christians might say this is a product of the Fall, but while it is only after the Flood that humans were officially given permission to eat animals (though the Noah story talking about 7 pairs of clean animals implies otherwise), animals still had to eat each other, leading to the dilemmas of vegan cat owners everywhere. For the record, I do not endorse torturing an obligate carnivore by imposing a vegan diet on them. I suppose in the future I might support feeding them only lab-grown meat, assuming the environmental costs of it are not exorbitant, but I don't think one should impose a harmful diet on one's dependents.

Tibetan Buddhists, who traditionally do eat meat because lots of the Himalayas are above the tree line and even in the lower elevations the growing season is very short, solve this problem by offering their bodies to vultures when they die, so completing the cycle of life. I am too Catholic in my respect for bodies (and also too squeamish at the thought of being devoured) to embrace this, though, and still enough of a theist to wonder about what this all says about God. Clearly the God of nature is different than my traditional notion of God. Does God love lions more than gazelles? Hawks more than pheasants? Raccoons more than turtles? While I resist it theologically, this does help me understand the ancient theologians who came up with the concept of a hierarchy of being.
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Shirataki noodles are pretty disgusting. Very low carb, yes, but a horrible texture and smell. I tried them first just boiled with spaghetti sauce, and they were horrible, but I had bought two packs so I tried frying them with onions, garlic and tahini to see if that improved the texture and it definitely didn't.
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So, let's see what's happened in the last two months:

1. Tripped and fell in the parking lot of Enloe outpatient center, and fucked up my knee pretty badly. I'm still not 100% sure it won't need surgery but it seems to slowly be coming back. Before that, though, I was up to 359 miles for the year. I don't think I should try any sort of walking for at least another week (it's been two weeks so far), so my exercise goals are rather bollixed for the moment. The good news is I was afraid I would regain a bunch of weight and my blood sugar would go up; so far that hasn't happened, knock wood.

2. Speaking of Enloe outpatient education...if I had known it would cost me $300 a visit, I don't know if I would have gone the second time, though the first time was helpful with some diet stuff. I would never have guessed about sourdough bread, for example. And I seem to be able to eat small servings of brown rice pretty well, as well as quinoa, but not really whole wheat pasta, even al dente with very small servings.
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Yesterday I walked 6 miles and didn't get a lot else accomplished because they dilated my eyes at the eye doctor and the dilation lasted much longer than normal--nearly 6 hours--during which time I was pretty non-functional. So much for my grading goals. (The good news, though, is the doctor said no signs whatsoever of diabetic retinopathy or other changes).

I did go shopping and found some mini whole-wheat bagels--only 17 carbs, yay!--so I am going to have a bagel sometime this weekend. This fills me with ridiculous joy, because bagels have been one of the hardest things to give up.

I also whipped up a delicious dinner with sauteed mushrooms, onions, garlic, and swiss chard that I ate on low-carb tortillas with lowfat provolone. My favorite cooking experiment of the week! I'm also going to try to make cashew cheese tonight, in part to experiment with my food processor and see if I can justify buying a mini-one. (I'm already kind of regretting the spiral slicer, though--I can't imagine really making THAT MUCH zucchini pasta, so I'm trying to be better about buying kitchen appliances.)

I was hoping that after yesterday, when I walked a lot and even napped, that I would be more productive today, but I really, really have not been. :-( I did drag myself out of bed to work out, but that seems to have eaten my willpower for the day; there are several work projects I should be doing right now instead of refreshing FB, LJ and DW a million times and making blog entries.

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Jan. 15th, 2013 09:42 pm
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Since I am now on a health-mandated new dietary regime, I've been looking for low-carb vegetarian recipes, and I stumbled across a wonderful site: vegangela.com. So far every single recipe I've made from there has been yummy. I'm especially fond of Creamy Cashew Kale with Chickpeas and Quinoa salad with spicy peanut dressing, but I'm also planning on making raw pad thai sometime this week with my new spiral slicer.

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