Random Monday ramblings

I am trying to be good about not eating too many nuts, but good grief I am hungry today. You would think that with all the fibre in lentils a lentil salad would be more satisfying for longer, but not so much.

Meanwhile I am trying to decide whether or not to go to a work-based diabetes support group tomorrow. I generally hate these kinds of things, but it might be helpful (and of course I don't have to go back if I don't want to), but I realized that I have more shame about diabetes than about my other chronic health conditions. I may not want to tell everyone in the world that I have mixed connective tissue disease, or that my left eye is blind, or that I'm lactose intolerant, but none of those conditions makes me feel ashamed--mostly I just don't want to get into long conversations about them. Whereas I realize I feel some shame about the diabetes, because after all I'm the one who let myself get fat. Even though I'm not responsible for my family history or the PCOS that probably precipitated this. Yikes. Who knew how powerful those cultural messages were!

In other diabetes news

While I love the Contour glucose monitor so far (yay for alternate test sites and less blood!), the free lancet device they give you with it is an utter piece of shit, especially compared to the one that came with the One Touch (even though I still think the One Touch is evil for the amount of blood it requires and how little explanation it gives you of the test process in the booklet).

The Bayer lancet device feels cheap, and the cap is very hard to get on and off, making it more likely that you'll accidentally stick yourself. The lancets are also very hard to remove, and they don't fire very well--I just had to do three attempts to draw blood from my arm, and I haven't needed that many for weeks.

I'm probably going to buy another lancet device so I don't have to use the Bayer ones as my extras; the reviews seem to suggest the accucheck multiclix is the best one.